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Wednesday, May 09, 2007
Cookin' session!!
My feelings are abit complex now.. i jus hope thgs will iron themselves out on their own, and that when i wake up tmr, it'll be a beautiful day again. haiz. i hate it when life gets complex. after all, i do just crave simplicity. i would much rather be ignorant and naive sometimes, and don't-carish and cold-blooded and numb. But life is thus. anyway we'll see how it goes. and as always, i know i would always find it within me to make thgs work again. i always have, always have to, always would, and always will. the inner strength is not innate. it is called for. necessary. forced out of pure survival instincts.
Anyway, highlights of another day of shu ling's life! Had a mini cook session at my place... karrie shem and i. well, actually, shem is basically the resident cook of today.. karrie is the marinate-tor and i'm the kitchen and utensils provider. Felt bad actually, cos actually shem did all of the cooking and most of the washing up, and karen and i just did the cleaning up and were eating all the way, like 2 tai-tais... and the dude made tiramisu too.. it was heavenly.. even the presentation was beautiful.. certainly worthy of restaurant-grade.. and that was on top of a full day's work. u rock dude. ahh.. and i forgot to tk pics of tt.
Here's presenting the chef of the day!!! *drumrolls*
The chicken chops in the making... Tonight's special was chicken chop drenched in mushroom sauce.. and the chef says it's his first attempt. The chicken turned out to be v hard, and the sauce a tad too salty, but for a first attempt, i thought it was pretty good le.. at least he can cook better than me, a disaster in the kitchen arena.
Karrie and i camwhoring in my room whilst shem was msn-ing away on my laptop... i can't say enough of this, but she's always so pretty in every shot... even the spastic pose shots.. she still managed to maintain looking pretty, while i'm the one looking seriously spasticated hahahahaz...
The 3 of us, when finally the chef retired from his MSN a while to take a couple of shots with us.
As the day comes to an end, i'm wondering how it is going.. and my own complicated feelings mixed with happiness for karrie dear.. happy for her having finally found her happiness, mixed with the complicated and suddenly-alone feelings yet again. again yet again. and the fear. I should stop being such an emotional nut. Should take care of my emotional being better. Karrie babe, i'm truly truly happie for ya.. HUGS.
Yet now, am still battling the feelings within. the feelings, that like Venom, seems to creep over my heart again... the rising and falling feelings.. of happiness and sadness, of loneliness and fear. of fear. of fear...
Balance. Stability. Strength.
When will i ever find you
Shu Ling Estrella @ 11:49 PM ~*~ |
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