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Friday, November 25, 2005
Truth.Beauty.Lies.Betrayal.Love
War & Beauty's cast
Rivalries, trust, lies...
Entangled bonds
I just finished another very good HK drama serial.. in like, 4 days. HK serials seldom disappoint, especially its contemporary period dramas. No one does period dramas like them you see.
"War & Beauty" is certainly one stellar performance with an even more impressive cast. But then u can attribute it to my love for such plots.. of betrayals and plots centred around the inner palaces of olden China. Maybe it's my feminist side greedy for the focus of the women to be brought out in a play of power struggle in a world where their fates are supoosed to be already pre-decided. ok just call me a sadist. but seriously no one brings out a power struggle as well as a group of women who use their creativity, cunning and wit to the max.
Each woman character, Sheren Tang, Charmaine Sheh, Gigi Lai and Maggie Cheung Ho Yee, had a story to tell in the beautiful, restricted walls of the Forbidden City, and their roles are everchanging in the unrolling of each's story, which is probably why i like it so much. No one stayed true to a single purpose in their time in the 6 palaces. The characters are ever-changing in accordance to the truths, lies, betrayals, placement of trust, in their lives.
Unregrettable. I know I always say that about the shows i watched. But then again, now i'm very picky over the shows i watch too.
Shu Ling Estrella @ 11:50 PM ~*~ |
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Sunday, November 13, 2005
7 things on 7 areas
It is a boring sunday and resolving not to spend my sunday like how i have spent my saturday(by sleeping it away), i decided to do this "7 Things" list which grace has suggested i do some time back and which cat has done too. and, (i'm not being mean here), its cos i'm really bored and i have no studying to do la, unlike the rest of yall... sympathies go out to those mugging in this horrendously hot and sleepy weather(which justifies why i am unable to bring myself to do anything at all:)).
7 things foods i love:
- Ben & Jerry's Strawberry Cheesecake ice-cream!
- fat, juicy strawberries (unfortunately i have only got to taste the measly small ones from local supermarkets...now if only can airmail me fresh juicy ones from Australia...*grins*)
- Grilled Potatoes
- Melted cheese on almost everything except rice
- Chinese cuisine *that includes everything from as cheap as 2 bucks to as ex as 100 bucks*!!
- Soya Bean milk fresh from the hawker centre!!( i swear i dun get enough of that!!)
- Pearl milk tea!!
ok...wait.. why are the "7 things i love" all food?? scratch that.. i should say.."7 top fave foods". 7 things i love: - my beautiful new sparkling white iPod Video
- conversations * meaningful or bimbotic* with close friends in a quiet setting
- my desk
- music
- Perfumes
- Charm bracelets
- Spas
7 things that'll melt my heart instantly: - a baby's smile
- a bear hug from behind *cos it literally takes u by surprise by its spontaneity and warmth*
- linking of fingers
- handmade anything from someone close
- a kiss onscreen *the sweet kind. the sweet lingering kind where the guy's so gentle and touches the gal with such sweet gentleness it's unbelievable*
- a call/sms from someone close who just calls to talk or misses me
- my little bolster from childhood..melts my heart ALL the time with the memories of my happy childhood
7 things i hate: - quarrels, arguments of any nature
- loud noises
- dirty restrooms
- smart-alecks/know-it-alls
- salesmen/surveyors who try every way possible to waylay u
- losing someone close, family or human relationship
- periods
7 things i dream/desire: - becoming rich cos that would be equivalent to more dreams, more desires, more open doors, more options.
- fall in love *that takes up about 1/3 of my dreams when i'm asleep for some reason or another. weird*.
- visit Disneyland in US, Tokyo, HongKong, France *wait is there one in France? i vaguely remember someone telling me there is. oh what the hell. ALL the Disneylands in the world:):)*.
- be musically-inclined. i.e. learn to play one or more musical instruments. i.e. piano, keyboard, flute, guitar, violin, cello, zither...
- learn how to dance professionally.
- learn horseback riding.
- live in a little cottage in the subburbs away from the world.
actually i wanted to add learning several languages like French, Spanish, Japanese, Italian and dialects and being able to be truly happy and blah blah... to the list but it's only 7 things..*pouts* can't i have like 10 things? 7 things that have made me cry*actually there have definitely been more than 7 but oh well..*: - when i'm criticised. for anything.
- when my aunt passed away when i was in sec 1, was still crying about it for years after.
- when i quarrel with a close friend and a cold war and break in relations ensue.
- when i quarrel with family.
- the scene from "Green Mile" when the black guy was escorted to be executed, when he told Tom Hanks that he didn't mind being executed though it wasn't his fault cos he was tired. Tired of having a God-given ability to see all the injustices in the world and being unable to redress all of them.
- when my nephew cried cos my cousin won't let him come back to my aunt's place and my aunt looked so gloomy cos of her child's behaviour.
- when i get sad over nothing at all.
7 words i'm always repeating: - huh...
- hor..?
- and then
- oh my God..
- damn it
- shit la
- i dunno la
ok so that's the seven areas. maybe yall would like to do a "7 things on 7 areas" list so that i can know yall better too. till then! p.s. what shall i do with the rest of my Sunday? *ducks from the frustrated muggers who wanna throw eggs or dirty shoes at me for making this comment* heh
Shu Ling Estrella @ 2:24 PM ~*~ |
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Thursday, November 10, 2005
Oh My.....
i'm having the cramps. tired. lethargic. and slept abt my noon away.
had a simple self-made dinner of grilled fish and garlic and stir-fried broccoli with button mushrooms.
watching "Frog Prince" on TV.
typing on my often-neglected blog.
playing with my beautiful new iPod Video. the one i sold my still-new iPod Color to flo dear to get. ok i'm not crazy. i'm just ermm... crazy over tech gadgets.
phrases from the novel "Prozac Nation" recommended by cat haunting me ever since i turned the first page. and i'm only 10-odd pgs into the novel.
tired. lethargic.
actually this week has been ok cos i have been preoccupied with activities. helped my cousin out with relief-teaching at kindergarten on Mon and Tues(exhausting man, those kids, but had a few favourites amongst the kids--can hear grace tsking at me), had a fantastic Tues evening with grace, spent Wed out too. today was the first time i dint hv sth to do, or a place to go. and though i kept myself occupied with cooking and reading, still a a little lost. like now. but i do hate going out or being out. zaps too much energy. aiya dunno la. i guess i'm still a lil directionless. or maybe its PMS. i wanna my Ben & Jerry's strawberry cheesecake ice-cream, where there is still about 2/3 tub in the freezer but wondering if it's good for my tummy.
tired. lethargic. directionless.
but i have decided to fight this on my own willpower. don't wanna medication to cloud my already-lost mind. dun wanna useless talks of tomorrow-will-be-a-better-day kind of optimism. i will fight it. Just await.
to rod stewert who left a comment in my previous entry, thank you, but who are you? and how did u come upon my blog? or is it someone I know who left a quote?
Shu Ling Estrella @ 7:31 PM ~*~ |
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Friday, November 04, 2005
there are times i can just summarise my feelings in a few lines:
i hate myself.
i hate my life.
i hate how some people in my life who have grown to be so important and are the ones offering me support all the way and whom i have grown dependent on, i have to hide my feelings of frustration, emptiness, unwantedness cos i know i am not as important or less important to them than they are to me.
i miss having someone who'll think of me as their no. 1 priority. girl or guy. i cant feel the physical warmth of God. i cant even feel the emotional, come to think about it.
i miss having someone i can have no qualms or reservations with.
i miss..........me? no la...there wasn't even a me in the first place. who is me?
i miss crying and knowing what i'm crying about.
i crave a hug. the kind that someone just looks at your face and realise a hug is all you need.
Shu Ling Estrella @ 12:32 AM ~*~ |
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